Lone Rider

You are the best of them, Lone Rider,
You fulfill your own life, dreams, time,
You are independent, Lone Rider,
With your walls of snow, pen and paper,
You can entertain enough,
With time to think,
You develop, Lone Rider,
Without distraction of the hustle and laze,
You produce, you improve, you prosper, Lone Rider,
I see you in the distance, but I am blinded by the silver,
Self-imposed solitude is my prescription, Lone Rider,
One-way tickets and unknown soil,
No more reinforced images of self,
Crashing against my new pilar from all sides,
Please allow me to spill into my own beautiful puddle, Lone Rider,
Uninfluenced,
Unmanicured,
Unknown,
No one understands, Lone Rider,
I barely do,
But I gravitate still,
Towards self discovery and reflection,
I envy you, Lone Rider,
You lonely, powerful woman,
I am inspired by you, Lone Rider,
I don’t want to be a cut cookie any more,
I yearn for the sky to be my perimeter,
And even still,
I will reluctantly draw outside the lines,
I love you, Lone Rider,
With all my heart and dreams,
And especially for your mirror into years,
I will be with you, Lone Rider,
After the snow melts and the flowers bloom,
I will escape to you, Lone Rider,
With a clear mind and body,
With old shoes but a new pair of lenses,
I will become you, Lone Rider,
And I am ever so excited to live and let be. 


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Generosity

An intriguing encounter invites aid,
With a simple question, a friendship is born,

Open, willing, sharing,

Human interaction, honesty, generosity,
It shocked me,

It confused me,

You refused any exchange,

I sat dumbfounded and speechless,

An uncommon state,

In this city of me’s,

You offered a hand with no intentions,

No expectations,

No mischievous manipulations,

Overwhelming liberality with one’s time,

I am encouraged to give back,

But maybe the message is to give forward,

I thank you,

For your kindness has ignited my hope in people,

Opportunity, life, and friendship,

I am reconnected to the world,

Excited about our new friendship,

And truly thankful for your generosity.


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Revel

Where am I?

Who’s hands are these?

Why do I feel so alone?

Technology has diminished my worth,

In this sea of beans, how am I supposed to shine?

Show my color in this black hole?

I need to escape,

I need to thrive,

I need to live,

How do I do that?

Where do I go?

What do I do?

I feel my youth being stamped out of my pores,

My skull is closing in,

Darkness seeps into my dreams,

I feel the suspense of a spring,

But what damn direction do I point my slingshot?

Too many choices,

Too many options,

Saturated markets,

Pulled in so many directions, hence motionless,

Paralysis sinks in,

Anything is possible,

Lack of personal touch,

I am angry,

Without a reason to be,

Sometimes darkness slides into the stage,

I hope it takes its bow soon,

But for now I will revel.


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Hopeless

The way you look at me brings shivers down my spine.

The way you think of me,

Is so wonderfully pure I can barely trust it.

It arises in front of me but I bounce it back, 

Believing it will shed its smirk and show its true colors.

But it never does.

Like the happy eyes of a child,

I know it is true,

And that it resonates within you.

This idea alone shocks me.

In our starless city,

I lay my head down to rest next to yours every night.

Why can’t we all see in ourselves what we so plainly see in others?

But would a decent human have such an ability?

Maybe that is the reason for love.

So your true colors can be appreciated,

And mirrored back to you in an inverse motion,  

In the love of the other.

Freedom,

Freedom is to do what the moment of reality brings you.

I am sad I am leaving,

Only when it comes to you.

But you are not an only in any part or perception of my life.

I am sorry baby,

But this has nothing to do with you.

I know you hear me,

But I don’t think you understand me.

It is not your fault,

I barely understand and it is my own work.

I hope to fulfill your perception of me when I am no longer near.

I hope to uphold the best parts of me and heal the rest.

I truly feel I can only do this in solitarily from my creation,

from every aspect or buffer that has guided me to the creature that lives in my skin.

I hope to cultivate passion and direction, experience and knowledge.

I hope to be smart and safe.

I hope to love and be loved.

I hope to be reckless with only my definitions and not my purity.

I hope to affect and be affected.

I hope to grasp importance before I loose it.

I hope to be hopeless, someday.


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Peaceful Confusion

Confusion of love, validity and harmony,

You have proved me foolish,

Constantly questioning the genuine,

I knew this before,

But you broke the rules,

I believed your actions,

I believed your words,

I believed because I mirrored.

Internal struggle,

For I know you believed them too,

But they proved to be false promises,

Wishes that you wished for,

Dreams that you could not dream,

You could not have loved me,

But you fooled me into believing you could,

Disappointment overwhelms,

In you and in me,

I am over the withdrawals now,

But I am still angry,

Polar opinions, days apart,

How could you?

How does that happen?

Logical decisions outweigh ones of the heart,

Is that right?

Will that haunt you later?

Surprisingly prepared by your cold shoulder,

I was still broken,

Round two of cons,

I understand it is for the long run,

But the chemistry is still there,

It worries me now,

I deserve more,

I deserve someone who doesn’t need to be sure,

I deserve someone who falls blindly,

I deserve someone who is solid and strong,

I deserve someone who is ready,

Ready for me and ready for the blue trouble,

A blissful summer and then I am ready,

Anxious to get started,

I wont let you set me back anymore,

Don’t do what he did,

I don’t want to feel vulnerable,

You owe me more than that,

It is time for me,

Confident in the relief,

Focused and in the moment,

No more compromises,

A peaceful ease is upon me.

Curiousity is left to kill,

I respect you,

But I don’t need you,

Please stay honest and learn,

We will be friends again,

Just give me my well-deserved blue summer,

And then we may be friends,

Empowerment brings revenge and strength,

Satisfied and content,

I am at peace.

Co-writer: anonymous


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Swan

My fearless great gig in the sky,

Such soulful femininity stops you starring,

Vulnerably accessible strength,

You are organically beautiful,

Such an undeserving generalization,

Let me define…

You are,

With a belly full of the earth’s poison,

On a beach gone black and white,

All because you have taken the colors,

Seduced them with your dance,

They bounce from your skin as solar flares,

You allow them to gently radiate your boom,

Confident in their presence,

For your energy is tangible,

They have no desire to stray,

How could they part from such glow?

I mirror their devotion,

I am committed.

More than I thought possible,

You are my coral spine,

When I close my eyes,

I see your purple everywhere,

You are in my heart, my mind and my bones,

Such a beautiful love,

I will be there soon,

You always knew before me,

Just give me time,

And we will bury the pigs together,

I don’t know how to write kind,

But you know the red dust,

You know the motorcycle drive bys,

You know never is a promise,

You know trouble,

You know Floyd,

You know me,

You know best.

As you grow, you twist and turn,

Like smoke that never dissipates,

Woman, it’s time,

Shake your way to the top of the world,

and swan dive the depths of the sea,

I trust you will,

I know you will,

I know you will because I will (be there) too.


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I Am Leaving

Baby, I am leaving,

I am leaving these borders,

These confounds,

These times,

These rules,

These walls,

I am leaving and I don’t know when I will return,

And I do not know what will happen,

I hope you will learn to understand,

I hope you will understand with your heart,

I need my mornings,

It is simple,

I am just leaving,

The only thing that holds me back in the best way possible,

Is you,

Beautiful, pure you,

I can’t do this alone,

But I will have to,

This is my dream, not yours,

I do not know how to explain it,

It does not make sense to me,

It is not practical or realistic in any way,

But it is mine and it feels right,

And I desire it more than anything,

Please don’t be scared,

For you or for me,

I cannot bare the burden,

Just know that I love you.


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